Sunday, October 27, 2013

On touching the devil

Me and Bynio. Errr... Correction: Bynio and me ;-)

Etsuji Horii sensei looking at us with disgust in the background.

Thursday, October 24, 2013

On age

This month it is 21 years since i started aikido.

Recent passing away of Murashige sensei made me question what this is all about.

I am in no way any good at this. But thanks to Piotr I was lucky enough to have been exposed to some truly amazing experiences, pinnacle of which was being one of the last uchi-deshi in San Diego dojo. And more and more I feel aikido is not about becoming kick-ass killa. Its about passing this fleeting, subtle feelings and impressions I collected over the years. Passing on to younger kids who were not lucky enough to have met TKC or Murashinge. Too bad I am so flawed and crappy at passing it on. Too bad I was too thick to gain more from exposure to really iconic and legendary teachers... I knew then that it was important for me, now it downs on me it was not for me at all, I was just the messenger. Now I begin to see the responsibility that came with it and I am afraid I am failing dramatically.

Oh well, after all - all I can do is try the best within my (admittedly) limited abilities...

Book recommendation

Neil Stephenson 'Cryptonomicon'

Really everything you can expect from a book. See, I read a lot. Really a lot. And only a few make impression. This one did.

Sunday, October 6, 2013

On sex, love and Sartre

I read Sartre when I was at the University, then I read all the other existentialists. And then I became a buddhist. And then, in last couple of years some things happened to me that i tried to make heads and tails out of any of these things like love, sex, relationship, truth, lies and so on.

I still consider myself a buddhist.

But recently I revised Existentialism, and while this one does not contradict Buddhism, it somehow focuses on smaller picture. It's like Newtonian physics is a subset of General Relativity. Or something like that.

Anyway - what I wanted to say is that whatever you do - you are alone in this. And all responsibility falls on you for whatever you do.

No, this is not a bad thing. Just let these scales fall off your eyes and stop blaming others or the world for your fuck-ups.

Oh yeah, right. How does sex and love fall into this? Well, to make long story short - these are just smoke and mirrors. Illusions and chess games. But - please - do your own research. Study, experience and draw your own conclusions. I do not want to give you easy answers. All I am saying - it is not as easy as it seems. Or better even - it's easier than you think.

And yes, Karmapa-chenno, motherfucker ;-)

On movie weekend

OK, so one by one.

Going postal - if you have not read Terry Pratchett's book - skip this one as you will miss half of the inside jokes. Very nicely done movie, but as mentioned - only for the genre fans.

Then there was World's End. Well, this one reminds me of From Dusk Till Dawn, where halfway through the move you actually realize you got the genre all wrong. My recommendation - do not read any recommendations, reviews or anything, just watch it. Hilarous!

And then there was After Earth, which, while still not bad, still was just mediocre. Oh, no, do not get me wrong. A good movie. Just... not in the same league as the first one here ;-)

Ugh... perhaps I am somehow biased towards Pratchett ;-)